Prom

Ok...so this is stupid.

I mean, really stupid.

I don't get why I'm so worried about it right now. But maybe that's because the prom date I was going to have isn't going to be my prom date anymore because the whole process will be too complicated. But seriously, right now, one of my biggest worries is that I don't have a prom date.

And, in all honesty, I doubt I'm going to get one.

The guys that I think are interested in me or that I know are interested in me (that go to my school) I don't like, and going to prom would give them the wrong idea. Which is something I definitely want to avoid. Then there are really no guys I'm interested in enough to actually try to make something happen with them. I mean, there are guys that I see and I think, "Oh, it would be cool to date them," but I know nothing would ever happen between us, so it's more like one of those crushes where I'm pretty much invisible to them, and I accept that. And I honestly don't mind it.

Plus, I've made a promise to myself that I'm not going to date for a while. And I'm going to stick to that.

But I don't get why I'm so worried about it. It's really not that big of a deal. Either I get asked to prom and I go, or I don't get asked and I don't go...

My friends want me to go no matter what. But the fact is that I don't have very much fun at school dances, especially without a date, so why would I want to go to something I most likely wouldn't have that much fun at?

Well, I don't know. I mean, I kind of want to start over completely with someone I barely know. Or with someone I don't know at all. I kind of want to go to prom with someone I would least expect, someone I would never expect to ask me...

Wouldn't that be cool? I think so.

But I doubt it will happen. And maybe I will go to prom stag...But I don't really know. Maybe I'll ask one of my friends, but I feel that might be kind of like a "Oh, I don't have a date so I'll ask the first person who pops into my head" type of situation, which I think is kind of rude and unwanted.

Meh, I don't know. It just makes me worried. I guess I just don't like being alone.

Hmm...Maybe Michael Bublé will pop out of nowhere and ask me...Yummy Scrumbos. =]

But in all seriousness, I want a date. But it won't be the end of the world if I don't get one.

Michael Bublé just made me feel better...

Summer turned to winter

And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late
'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can't bear the thought
I said, babe, you're not lost

How can he just put the perfect words into my thoughts? I wish I could meet him...

Well, I guess whatever happens, happens. And we'll just have to see what does.